Have you ever felt like no matter what you do, you can’t seem to get anything done? I’ve never felt that more than when I decided to become an author. Truthfully, at the time, I was just excited that I was finally writing my book and had no clue what awaited me once I hit PUBLISH. Well hello rude awakening! I know I’m just having a moment, and good times are behind and ahead of me, but TODAY I feel like whining. Wah Wah Wah! TODAY I question what I am doing. TODAY, I understand why some writers choose to remain anonymous or hermit themselves away from publicity.
Why am I throwing a mini pity party? Well, I’ll tell you. I’ve spent months and months learning and trying to follow the ropes. Build your platform, they say. Learn to market and promote, they say. Make friends with your fellow authors, they say. Keep writing, they say. Holy cow, I say! That’s a lot. Marketing alone is a mountain. I’ve reached out to so many people, some who don’t even return emails. I’ve joined so many groups, some whose members only reply to people they already know. I’ve signed up for giveaways, and donated, and shared and….
Here I am, feeling like the invisible woman in the room. I’m on the perpetual in-between. I know this is a TODAY feeling and tomorrow I’ll be fine, but TODAY bothers me. TODAY I question all the things I may be doing wrong. Tomorrow I will remember what I am doing right. TODAY, I wonder why no one wants to sign up for my giveaway. TODAY, I’ll wonder why my book was left out of a group effort to cross promote. TODAY, I will turn over tables, and kick chairs and growl for no reason in particular. TODAY, I will wonder if I am falling through the cracks.
Tomorrow, I’ll get back in the dog fight and make my voice heard.